NEEDS, and the reality of living alone.

The reality of our living existence in time is: that we are defined by the possibilities; of what we do with our experience and expressions of time.  An accounting of what life has been/ an extrapolation discovering where the future will take us, as described by the relationships (human, work, etc) we have set into place.  The foundation we have elected to describe for ourselves as the best we could design given the parameters of life we MUST work within, are all distinctions of a lifetime.  And the elements of who we have chosen to be, as best we did do, for both life, and ourself (the elemental creation, of who I can or will be with, or because of you).
Time is the creation of possibilities, the purpose of your own action and reaction as best reality will give to you, your freedom to decide.  Time demands survival, which therefrom demands your attention to details and work/ but it does not apply relationships to your own life, once you have pasted the time by which you may select these for yourself. Which means literally, we must create these for ourselves.  And it is “hard to do” for very many people. Because so very many people choose to use, abuse, want, and thereby destroy the foundations of a friendship because of selfishness and pride.

If you “measure your friend”/ they are not a friend to you, but an asset to be used or abused.  If you have no time for a friend, whether in marriage or not/ they have ceased to be the focus of your life, and if so, then something or someone else has replaced you.  HOWEVER, If you do not take care of business as a reality of both time and effort/ your means to make a living will fail, and that has consequences too.  If you have a goal, to marry someone/ they are not your friend, but your trophy, and the consequence will be “moving on to the next conquest and title; look at me”.  If you believe that your only asset in determining a friendship is the way you look or don’t look;  or sexual acts/ then you have disrespected yourself, and there are consequences for that.  If you believe that drugs will be an answer for the loneliness in your heart;   life will abuse you, until you accept hiding or running away, is not an answer.  If you believe “that everyone in this group” is the same/ all are good or bad; then you are judge and jury, and the consequence of measuring others is, you will form hate/ you will measure them as worthless, and violence is next.  Or if they are “like a god” to you/ so that you consider this one more than you are: then you choose to hate them (because such pride as this is intended to create, is a violence to the soul)/ or you choose to hate yourself, because such disrespect for yourself as is this, consumes the heart and damages the soul, causing thoughts and contentions of suicide or murder to arise instead of life.
If you give of your heart with love, and it is not returned/ then it is your loss, because you “gave your love away, literally”.  In real terms this is the blessing known as self acceptance, self respect, and self worth all challenged because it was not enough in this situation to make the difference.  They or this one, simply chose against you.  BUT YOU MUST understand: that when you ask for a lifetime, such as is marriage intended/ this is NOT A LITTLE THING!  Therefore you must be prepared for rejection/ and NOT try to buy, what is not meant for you to keep in this day and time.  Not you, just a reality of fate in one form or another.

If you give of your heart with love and it is returned/ but not with marriage or the long term commitment that you had desired: then understand, love is not the problem, but even so the heart lives where passion has decreed, “this is more important to me, than even happiness”.  Or simply I must go.  It is not rejection, it is a choice defended by the simple statement: it is my life too, my hope and destiny too.  Love is a powerful statement of desire, and desire fills the heart with a purpose dedicated to pleasing you:   but spirit and soul exist as well, and sometimes there is only one way or the other/ not both.

If you give of your heart as in the desire for marriage, and it is granted to you/ then understand what you have really and truly done is to say:   I will be here forever, as best I can your friend and companion in life.  BUT FEW are willing to do this, and less are willing to share of themselves so much, that this is the essence of marriage which is:   to join in such a way, that there are literally no walls between us/ we have traveled outside the realm of self, each one, beyond the ability to defend mine against yours, and now live honorably as one life together forever.  This is a relationship dedicated to trusting each other, because respecting each other and our individual needs, has built a relationship governed by truth. Truth decides, who can be truly “married, as one life”.  Few are true, even to themselves.  Do not be vulnerable to any such extent, until truth proves the relationship is worthy.  Believe in GOD, and put that relationship first, so that no other reality can come between you and your CREATOR;   so that you may not die, because someone hurt you so badly, by taking away your own love/ that hate can be born, or suicide can be conceived of.  Put   GOD FIRST.  This is important, to you.  Every life needs a distinct ladder of life: or more simply, the inner list of values so important that it must not be tampered with.   I say to you:
1.  GOD IS FIRST, and no other. It is for your own life that this is true.   “It is true, GOD does not need you”/ but it is equally or more importantly true, you need GOD in every aspect of life, living, and eternity.   That is not a religious statement in reality, it is a statement of belief; a consequence of what has or has not been accepted as the basis and foundation of life. Religions are about disciplines and organizing your life to be disciplined.  Useful, but NOT the same.
2.  You are second, because without you, there is no life/ therefore even loving another equally, does not mean that you may be second in your own mind to them.  You must protect your existence, and then another as love provides.  If you are dead, there is no love left for either, from you.
3.  This is a decision that can only belong to you.  And it does include; whatever the passions of your life allow.  Freedom demands the right to choose.  Happiness dictates a relationship must be chosen, rather than bought or claimed or possessed.  Without happiness, respect will die, because life has lost its value. 

The elemental task of living alone, is then to discover what is happiness when passions or reality does not allow for a friendship that is “everything we need to cherish this life in me”.  That is not easy, because love elevates us beyond ourselves to attain relationships and purposes, that examine desire as if we were born to do this very thing. Without someone to love, it is an impossible dimension to hold, but it can be “touched”/ if you have love inside yourself, respect for your world including you, and a purpose that justifies existence because you are “the best you can be” for life, and the pleasure or even pain of existence.  GOD IS LOVE, and I tell you truly, the relationship I share with   HIM is real.  The same can be true for you.  This is a testimony I give to you/ how you hear it, is up to you, not me.
Because this is fleeting in terms of a description “that fills the void of physical time: we are NOT to be dependent”.  The reality of living is simply, that we must all search for the balance needed to feel and be at peace with ourselves and our world.  Of things and people, is the simple truth;   few last for any length of time.  There are a wide variety of reasons for that, including “I need to protect you/ you need to respect me/ we need to find common ground and spend time together, but can’t/ please stay, but won’t, or simply can’t/ want intervenes/ time ends/ disparity causes boundaries that cannot be climbed or are refused/ relationships between people are MOST often determined by “choose me or them”.  And so on. 

Loneliness is the preparation for being bound together with someone else;   because it teaches you the value of another life, particularly someone who loves.  Therefore loneliness is in fact a predecessor for marriage, aiding time in cultivating a need and desire to be joined.  But loneliness is also the platform from which many people jump into all kinds of predicaments “a long list”/ which then require considerable work and effort and change to return as the person who once believed life would be kind.  Life is not kind/ truth does not care/ reality is, what reality is: and that leaves only love to share or care about who we truly are.  But love is enough in life.  It is however a tragedy of failure in so many people today, because they surrender it in an avalanche of needs.  So many are consumed, or being consumed with want/ that they have no time for friendship or the desire that creates love which is the honesty “I choose you/ in truth, because of who you are/ not who you can be, or what you can do for me”!  Unlike the tragedy of depending upon sex to grant you a relationship/ which never works for long:   choosing someone else requires an equal participation as determined by respect, honesty, and shared experiences through the expression of our relationship cherished as life.  If we do not cherish each other/ we cannot build a foundation with each other that will survive.  Cherish means:   as in romance, I will believe you are the essence of my world.  You are the energy given to my heart. The blessing searched for in my soul.  The passage between life and darkness, where I need not be afraid.  These things are rare, because men want/ and women shop; and the competition for everyone and everything adds aggression to the delusions of pride, power, and selfishness.

Physical sex is the embodiment of “a time shared”/ but without truth and caring, as a reality it is a tragedy assigned by the consequences of being used, abused, and even raped without the meaning of a single moment called friendship.  The literal terms of respect are: with life, we become the essence of our “CREATORS HAND”, therein we believe the foundation of every miracle (realities we cannot even conceive of/ beauty we cannot even comprehend), is a chance to say thank you.  To disgrace that work, to disrespect it by a lack of value accepted, or truth assembled in friendship,    Descends or causes life to reject the simple truth, “we are treasure, because life alone is the greatest thing in this entire universe”.  It is wrong to take what has clear and true value, and use/ abuse/ rape/ or cause disrespect:   because you have none of the happiness required for love. Happiness is a gift of life, when joined in the freedom to understand that love is a purity of mind, conceived by respect, but born in the essence of truth and a life established and assembled by miracles.  Love sees in our relationship with body, the evidence of thought unbounded by the realities of our world, the incredible relationships that are not conceived by anything to do with our “wisdom”.  Love cherishes the elemental being of life, by its expression, experience, and existence in time;   giving sexuality the evidence of everything that can be grand, and beautiful between a man and woman. Love, is a moment expanded into the memories that last a lifetime.  The heartbeat explained not in words, but by the honor of being with you.  Sexual truth is the message created, by our own unique individual creation;   becoming the balance of our lives given back in the worship of GOD, OUR CREATOR an  absolute friend, sealed forever where true love exists.  Sexual friendship lives together, when the mind understands; there is true love here.  Sexual honesty remembers, that it is not a “legal paper/ or a religious ceremony” that joins lives together;   but the honor of our value to each other, that makes us one.

Nothing of value is found in simple sexual acts.  Nothing of value is held, by tempting another.  Nothing conceived by respect, lacks the value and dignity of a disciplined purpose in love.  Nothing described by entrapment (in any form), EVER leads to happiness.  Nothing done for a trophy, will ever bring contentment; trophies are about saying look at me/ to the others;  and has nothing to do, with the person being used, abused, or raped; it is “an evil thing”.  Because lives are lost, in the wreckage.    It takes jealousy, to turn love into violence.  It takes tragedy to turn courage into disgrace.  The ability to love is not given to those who choose pride/ because they are too busy “worshiping themselves”.  The possibility of love is not allowed to those whose purpose is power/ because they are opposites in word and deed.  The right to love, is withheld from all who hate/ because it is their choice;   THEY DESIRE DEATH for you.
Learn to recognize hate, and stay away.  Learn to listen for disrespect, because they will disrespect you.  Learn to hear the passion for things, recognize the value measured in pride; and understand life is not here, these are things, not you.  Stay free of lust, it is one body trying to use the other; proving to this one,  you are a toy, or less/ just a machine with a purpose that does not include life or you. 
If a day comes, when time with each other is hiding or running away/ the reality is, you no longer respect each other; one or both blame the other, and there can be no peace until it is reconciled for real.  If a day comes when you need sex, but cannot because “your lover” no longer cares.  The reality is, we are each entitled to our own life/ and no one owns it or your body but you.  Therefore you are free to do as you wish/ but free does not mean, there will not be a price to pay, the other has needs and desires too.

Loneliness and living alone are not identical realities. Rather loneliness is the absence of body, the life of someone to hold.  While living alone is, a relationship within the world assigned to you.  Living alone is reconciled with understanding what that world is intended to be.  Loneliness is held to the descriptions of who I cannot be/ because no other is here with me.  We are a lonely world, not because people don’t touch with their bodies.  But because people won’t touch with their heart.  Too many just leave/ too many just won’t care enough/ too many refuse to be friends, and choose to be “players in a game of delusion”.  For there is no love in games with life/ its just “use and abuse”.  That is not to say romance and the games we play to enjoy each other as one life expressing hope and happiness to another is not love, for it is.  Rather when anyone is declared “winner or loser”/ the    Reality of your relationship was as a game.  Nothing more, and nothing less.  Tragedy measures/ evil buries, robs, and blinds their prey, because it’s a war, not a game.  Want tragically infects a great many people/ because want will make you take chances that you know are not fair to you or another.  That can lead to terrible consequences.  The only great thing in life is love/ the only valuable relationship is bound distinctly within respect on both sides.  The only safe relationship, is true friendship first.  Sexual relationships between honest friends, as male and female (there is no other)/ forms a bond that will bring tears, when or if someone finds another.  It is a bond that consumes time, and changes the reality of life, sometimes destroying true happiness or trust in the opposite sex, for one or both.  Sometimes rescuing hopes and happiness for one or both;   it is never certain to say.  It is certain to say: if you are not true friends given the right to form chains of the heart/ then you are not, true lovers who have found a way to share what could be “forever”.  In the alternative however, it is also certain and true to say; that at times in the reality of human life, loneliness can creep in/ and knowing that someone cares enough for me, to share their body underscores the certainty life and future are worth living for.  That is an important dimension of sharing our reality in love, for life that is in honest and real need.  Friendship that cannot attain forever, is another relationship that cannot simply be discarded; when time and life prove, sexual companionship is important here.  Would you let your friend die a slow death surrounded by “no one loves me/ even though I try”?  In every sense it is important to help each other find a relationship that will last and benefit both.  But it is never easy to find the balance where, “helping” in whatever way you can;   will only help them evade looking for themselves/ and focusing on you instead.  Between adults, where time or life prove sadness or need exists, I do not believe the issues of “family” construct a barrier: because LIFE IS more important than simple social structures.  NOT “the best solution”/ but no one who loves, or is able to love should be cast aside;   period.  But that too, is fraught with endless compromises and complications, which are not so simple as “this, or this time, is all that will be needed”.  The human dilemma is:   how do I share and care, without damaging another life, because their own needs require more?  I tell you true, at least in women;   if you fulfill an honest need/ they won’t accept “I cannot stay”/ with tears from both heart and soul.  How then is the question of sharing and caring fulfilled/ when the only answer, brings with it “a shower of tears and more” that simply cannot be changed with the honesty I love you/ but cannot stay?  There is no true answer when sex is involved;   either you accept the price of tears/ or you must not accept the reality of shared love, without a commitment that cannot be made until a true relationship is formed. Because tears will come.

In the elements of living alone, love distinguishes that there are, for most, moments when the possibility of sharing a relationship with someone else does appear; at least for a short time.  IF YOU KNOW HOW to recognize them.  Consequently the understanding of both men and women allows, the more fundamental acceptance of what this means, or means to me.
MALE MEANS;   that I have earned the disciplines needed to balance my life, and protect it from harm as respect and reality will design in me.  Without discipline, security in the defense of life or judgment or decision is merely a guess.  With discipline, hopes and purposes as desire assigns can be found; creating in men, the possibility of building not only a personal life, but understanding the nature of a relationship that exists beyond myself.
FEMALE begins to suggest: that my need extends to the vulnerabilities that I feel inside.  That I am not secured by discipline/ but protected by the security of a judgment dependent upon others. Protected by my own relationship with the law, rather than strength in body, I must build within the relationships I create and define and decide; so that I can “be myself”/ because I have no fear.

In the realm of man, the issues of woman are not comprehensible, because we are designed to be the opposite, so that two, may in fact be completed as one.  The issues of sex in man are not decided based upon a relationship, but rather these are initiated through the expectation of happiness, the hope of a decision shared through the understanding “we will be happy, right here, and right now, for this moment/ not just me”. [little boys, do not care, sex/ the penis, is a toy without discipline until hurt explains this is not what it seems].  The sexual dimension of time is dedicated to now/ not later.  And that means contrary to what women think, there is no memory of “anything special”;  beyond the simple experience of acceptance.  Much later, in terms of years; some memories return as special/ but that is determined by loss and sadness instead of joy.  The sexual intent of man [NOT boy, his purpose is trophy time] is:   to join you as woman, in the discovery of who we can be together.  The sexual decision of love in man is,   I cannot do this, if you will not be happy. Because I am not here for tears.  That closes the door to many; making it necessary that there must be “flowers (moments which bloom, in the discovery of who we are together)” before sexual experience and expression take over.  Because relationships also bring tears/ but they are not as deep or as heart wrenching as those caused by sexual love or the joining of a spiritual expression.  The sexual reality of love in man is:   that women are to be honored, respected, and discovered in the honesty of who we are together.  Without the question of tears, that is a relationship that can accept sexual experience with happiness/ but understands, unless there is discipline and truth, a long list of realities including pregnancy and abortion linger with every opportunity; and men are provided little choice [believe or refuse to believe until proven]; its take what you get/ and try to shift through the lies.  Because women do “plot and plan”/ if they are not happy “with the progress” being made.    The sexual dimension of man is commonly “happy to do this”/ it adds pleasure and peace to life”.  BUT the sexual truth of man is: there is a price that will be paid, in tears or tragedy or failure of relationships;   because the sexual truth is, NOT FREE/ not a game or a toy or an opportunity without the truth it is “a serious matter”.  Even though the price, is generally determined later/ the reality is: there will be a price for sex to someone/ and there will also be a price for not having sex, when “tempted” by woman.  Its “you rejected me”/ even if the signal is small or limited.  Women want control of sexuality, and they do produce signals to let you know “go ahead, sex is needed/ wanted/ or desired”.  Women present “the gift”/ and men are suppose to believe “they made the move, its all their decision”.  But that is not true, unless rape/ it is a mutual decision; OUR decision, and OUR reality generated by what WE chose to do together.  The life of man is basically “a black and white world”/ where discipline has demanded:   “One plus one, equals two”.  Or in another sense, if we both make this decision together, using the body for what it was literally designed to do:   then HOW can I owe you anything more?  It was our decision, and we made this together.

In the realm of female, wherein the comprehension of woman is not known, the reality of “female possibilities” has begun to form “feelings, from a different realm” than I have ever known.  Instead of black and white in every aspect of life/ there are now the essence of emotion;   which can only be defined as “completely different” than male.  Everything is now a big question, everything relates to the functional realities of need in someone else, desires that may or may not be fulfilled, the possibility of nourishing someone else’s life as a respect for us both, the desire for what is simple and kind, the exceptions for what seems necessary or worthy of compassion, hopes for every life, possibilities to aid another through someone else, worry that doing this or not doing that will have repercussions for someone else or me.   IT IS A LONG LIST of “maybe, maybe, maybe” in simple terms. It is an assumption that I cannot ask for sex because that would be “too vulnerable”.  Cannot expect sex because that would be “too needy”.  Cannot participate in sex, because friendship must come first.  The opportunity for happiness, is bound within the honesty of a relationship that is proven to be more, than simple sex.  Or so it seems to me; as I struggle to unravel whatever this is. 

 Sex, or at least the possibility of sex in my own case;    is limited to, everything is so badly “jumbled up” it is somewhat undefinable/ can’t imagine what I am suppose to do; its all gone,   NOT simple sex, point a, goes into slot b.   Far beyond that, where the reality of sharing creates an expression of caring, hope, and respect.   It is strange, not knowing;  you can’t imagine, its like my head exploded or something;   nothing is the same. For the sake of honesty, I will admit that everything beyond simple sexually, is just plain fuzzy, or completely unclear. Apart from only women belong here: that is absolutely without confusion.  Oddly enough, being literally confronted by;      Both genders inside, it really is a battlefield in some ways/ but in others quite peaceful actually.  Even today, when clearly female is in control; everything I use to be/ IT IS, the essence of male being removed, “its just gone”, and continues to be destroyed a little more each day. I can’t even describe everything lost, because it doesn’t exist anymore; I simply know this is NOT the life I use to live. I cannot honestly imagine the outcome of it all/ I cannot control ANY sexual demand, “don’t own me anymore”, the spiritual woman described in earlier writing does. I have literally become “like a girl/ or more simply bound by the reality of what being a girl means” in more ways than I can even imagine/ clearly her desire is, what being female in this male dominated world is really like.  One of those, “how would you like it” lessons.  ITS COMPLICATED!  WAY beyond anything expected, on many levels, you can’t imagine as a man.  Its NOT the removal of my Identity in truth as life, it is the removal or submission of male in me; and CLEAR instruction in what it means literally to be female. Including the requirement, “tell them”. I don’t know why/ or why me!  My own definition is becoming;  surely this must be an education “to you; to me too, but the writing is not for me”/ so I will try.   To those who cannot understand that, I say to you;   “No, I do not write as a person isolated from life/ yes, I do write with the expectation that I will have to live with the results of these words” and accept the consequences.  Even with the potential for a whole world reading. My defense: this world is threatened with extinction, whether you believe it or not/ it is true.  What is male brought us here.  True change means, female MUST now lead, because men have already condemned us to death.  WE MUST HAVE CHANGE!  Therefore women MUST “save us”, literally because they are different/ or we cannot be saved, and this world of life will die.   How or why I fit into that description, is a mystery; apart from the obvious bringing this message to you.  Opening the spiritual door to female, was both the worst mistake/ and the biggest success of my life.  Worst because I continue to lose what was precious and valued by me as male.  But best, because without the spirit of women, I would have failed to complete this message: or find an answer to how can we survive all the tragedy coming.  That answer is women/ NOT because they are better/ but because they are different.  Whether they can succeed or not, is not up to me/ its up to women; and if they care enough to try.  I simply know: male decisions brought us here, and extermination is next, because of the decisions they have made!  Without truly different, we will not survive “the list” is only partly filled out;   so many things threaten us it is unnecessary to list them all today.  This is, the best men did do!  Simple as that.  Extinction is next/ unless we change, forever.  Like it or not, is completely irrelevant/ truth does not care, “what you like or hate”/ it merely follows the law, and creates or destroys by commitment to the truth, or conviction under the law.  Want, is irrelevant and useless.  The true question is:   do you wish to live or die?  Go to court, and prove me wrong. QUICKLY, or your through.

In the consequence of isolation, is the life given to whatever I can be for myself.  Created from the relationships that define my own existence, it is necessary to establish inside yourself, the very foundations of what you believe is most important to you.  For my own life, the expressions and experience of knowledge, the creation of wisdom, and the expansion of understanding are all fundamental elements in the existence of me.  Consequently I chose to investigate, examine, and define the identities most likely to impact me; throughout the times that I have lived essentially alone.  One such endeavor was, “of all things about life and living”, surely one of the most interesting, is what happens when you die; CANNOT avoid it, therefore the cause and consequence of what “will happen to me”, is a primary interest!  NOT in the physical conception of death/ that is utterly without interest or educational relationships.  But what is life, and what is death, and what is eternity as has been discussed throughout the web sites created. {yours need NOT be the same, only the truth that is in you, can respectfully decide and live that life, as the creation of who you intend to be}. In this writing, we are discussing living life alone.  So therefore the question is to you:   what is so fundamentally interesting in life or living, that you are willing to dedicate your life and time to the basis of understanding a relationship that gives to you, both peace and the freedom to express your own identity in these travels between time and place, that search for soul?  Want, is not enough, as this merely represents a game that will be played in selfishness; resulting in driving life away.  Desire is the elemental truth, of a destiny, that will live beyond this moment in time/ as the truth of who you chose to be.  Desire is the essence of a distinct identity, earned by the right of creation/ the formation of truth described as you.

In the lessor definitions of living alone, the consequence of others is an element none escape/ therefore it is necessary to determine your own methods of belonging within society.  For a short time, I turned to “being cool, or cold” to humanity.  Or more simply being unaffected by the plight and direction of others/ simply choosing to isolate myself, “from you”.  It is a much simpler life/ but on a trip, I was confronted with “a thousand things” that said to me:   life is more important than this/ you are wrong!  I turned back sharply/ asked “let me be cold no more”, and returned to caring individually.  So should you, because even though many people use, abuse, etc/ and won’t listen or even give you the time of day:   they are still   GOD’S   CREATION   , and in every sense of the word, that or they MUST be respected.  And helped as you would choose for yourself.  Its important, or we all simply become MORE isolated from each other/ by the disaster of greed, the manipulations and propaganda of men, failure, threats, tragedies of all kinds.   We simply must not give up on life and society.  Therefore choose something within which you can be of service to life, and to    GOD    And do the best you can.  It is that simple.  Everyone who lives alone, has two things to deal with that are both good and bad:   isolation gives to you the time and freedom to do far more as an individual with your life, because you need not share the decision, it is mine alone.   The discovery of relationships, include all life on earth, instead of “just one or slightly more”; because there is no easy way to survive without discovering more.  I find a walk in the woods, an experience that includes “other life, in a far more realistic sense than calling them plants”/ our planet, our world is not just human.  For instance. While this may be too “frivolous” for some/ the reality is, each must define their own existence by what you are willing to contribute.  Each are allowed to contribute, because of time, energy, or education among other gifts.  Each one, has something to offer/ even if none appreciate you; as is, or has been true of my own life in some ways.  Friendship is built upon respect.  The opportunity for friendship, a willingness to accept with honesty, the people we are.  The discovery of friendship, is a relationship created by the simple truth of freedom, “I will let you be you/ kindly let me be me”.  A friend remembers:   to ask when it is necessary/ to tell when it is apparent and real/ to listen, when life needs you to hear/ to speak, and ask for help if you need it.   To believe, that with honesty nothing will be damaged between us, that cannot be repaired, at least in time/ unless one or both fall into hate.   A friend accepts, that if this must be/ then I can believe what you must do, is literally what you must do; because it is your life, not mine. Do not condemn without    “Trial, the opportunity to be understood”.  Do not abandon without the critical demand called hate;   anything less, can be repaired, if you desire that. Everyone makes mistakes/ everyone fails once in a while/ everyone has needs, desires, hopes, and a life to live on their own.  Which means simply, sometimes I am not looking at you/ because I need to take care of me. 
Do NOT participate with the people who are gambling with every life on earth!   WHEN was the last time or WHERE is the evidence that humanity changing nature, is a good thing?  Little things can be beneficial/ BUT RARELY after the deed is done, and reality comes to call:    Can anyone say, thank goodness men came and changed this for us.  Nearly always as time passes, the reality is exactly the opposite.  Think about that, when you say to anyone including yourself:    “Oh how grand we will be/ because men are    Going to play god”.  Stop fantasizing, and recognize reality!  Even when you tell me that some of the medicine created, is an absolute blessing to all human beings/ I will tell you, it is true, UNTIL you look at the population explosion, and understand we are all, about to die.  Because we have taken over nature, and now stand at the brink of its collapse; leaving us with absolutely no food, but cannibalism/ ending in world war:   soon.
WORK FOR LIFE FIRST, because if we don’t as a humanity united/ we truly won’t be here much longer.  No more loneliness, because no more people or life on earth!  It’s a choice.